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| WOW!! long time Noooo UPDATE! omg! well there honestly isnt much new and i just have nooo time to update anymore, im usually on myspace thats all i use now a days! : ) I am 17 now i my birthday was friday! yippee! thats about it though~--jamie | | |
| O my...so much new, well not really new but just so much change, so much stress, so many thoughts..etc. Sometimes i wonder, why do i matter, what am i here for...what is this pupose in me living my life. I know its because God wants me here but the people around me dont really show that they want me here... My best friend moved to sacramento just about a week ago and it feels like its been eternity. Its been incredibly hard without her here, im just stuck with nobody feeling like a no body. To this day i still cant figure out what it is about me why people can treat me like dirt, laugh about, get away with it and pretend it never happend or had no effect on me whatsover. Well BIG news, ITS just a big lying game thats been played for 17 years. OH jamie is so easy to pick on and make fun of because of course she obviously has no feeling or wont take it personal. Well let me tell you something, i am human just like everyone else, i have feelings and i DO take things personal!!!! Would you like to be made fun of everyday of your life, or have people just ignore you, push you out of the circle, treat you like you dont matter or dont exsist. I dont think you would so why treat other people like this? i get it from everyone and it gets really old really flippin fast, and its not like i can tell anyone about it or share my feelings or my thoughts because when i do they question me or they try to change my oppinion on something or say im being to "this" or to "that". So...i just keep it inside, and that doesnt really help any situation either. I just wish it would be easier to tell everyone the truth. But of course not life doesnt work that way. I SERIOUSLY dont understand how people can be sooo flippin rude, i just dont get it. Everywhere i go....School, Work, Church, Youth Group, The Store, Being around "friends".....i dont understand....and yet im one of those people that likes to find the "GOOD" in everybody also known as an "opptomist", why do i only find the good in anybody, it obviously never gets me anywhere in life. Why spend all that effort into being nice to people when i cant even get that in return. Its just sooo frustrating. Sometimes i think it would be way easier and so much more pleasant up above to spend time with the only person who thinks i really matter. Why does this have to be this way? I just feel like ive been trampled on by a stampede and they dont even realise that ive been crushed. Because there is so much other distraction around them. BRITTANY is the ONLY person who i have felt that has ever cared for me and who wants to listen to me without questioning me or whatever. Its been so hard not to have her here, and no one understands how big of a hole is in my heart because she is gone. I know that she is loved and missed by many many people but you know what all those people have "back-up" yeah brittany was a close friend but they all have their other "friends" that they can go to and hang out with, and tell there problems too...Nope Not ME!! because for some reason people dont like to be around me because im too "LOUD" well im sorry im to loud for you to hang out with you, fine ill shut up ill just get out of your life all together then we wont even have to deal with it...but you know what, your too rude so why does it matter. I think ive pretty much summed it up and talked in circles but maybe if you read this you might be a little more cautious and have a little be a little more heart felt to the people around you....think about it...think before you talk/act and what impact that action or words will have an effect on someones life...--Jamie | | |
| hey all--Wow long time no update! I dont remember the last time i left off. But brittany left on friday, wow that was seriously the hardest day of my life, I thought saying goodbye to my first continental tour was hard....nope this was beat! I miss her so much, it just doesnt seem real that she is actually gone. We had even told eachother we were gonna be walking partners for graduation, screw that! Its just so different without her here. Hopefully i'll get to see her as soon as school is out before cassidy comes that would be sweet. My summer is going to be filled with sooo many fun things i cant wait. Yea so i have a wiered story ...but its way to long to explain. I was asked out by this cowboy ive never even met and then he asked me for my phone number and was following me around all over sunday...there is alot more to the story though...its kinda creepy. I got my winter formal pictures this afternoon, omg we are a GOOOD lookin group! I love them all so much. Thats about it for now. lotsa lovins --Jamie | | |
| hello there...well its been quite a full week/weekend. I went on our anual Junior High winter retreat, i was a leader seeing as how im a junior in high school. I was dish crew! yAY! it was allright i suppose. Brittany is moving friday OMG i have no idea what im going to do without her i cant hold it in, i just keep crying over it and omg its going to be horrible. But i have till friday thank god. It will go by fast though unfortunatly. She has made such an amazing positive impact on my life and i thank God for her every day. I hope and wish her and her family the best of luck in every situation. Today im home not feeling well i have a bad a cold and to make the situation worse i started my period....yucky!!! thats about it so ill catcha all later --Jamie | | |
| hello there--well not to much new here lately. Brittany is moving next weekend :( ahh...what will i do without her omg it will be so unberibly hard!! Well finals are today and tomorrow, 2 finals today, and one tomorrow, the one ive taken so far was a piece of cake! hopefully its the same for next period...its a test on julius caesar, vocabualry, and extra credit: on my teachers personal storys...its hillarious every day there is always something that she talks about from her personal life...so she is giving an extra credit test on it. which is good, cause i pay attention cause they grasp your attention so ill get some good extra credit...plus i did ec book report worth 150pts....so!! YAH THATS ALOT OF EX CREDIT! yaya, so if i bomb my tests im still good, if i do good on the tests then im Really good. well thats it on school. i stayed home from school yesterday with the flu i had to call in sick on monday and tuesday cause i wasnt feeling well at all! but im feeling a little better now. i think thats about it, i will ttyl! --Jamie | | |
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